electrified

As all of you people must have known, i'm a very very shy guy. I hate to admit it but a fact's a fact. Interestingly, i wasn't a shy boy until i reached like Primary4. If my memory didn't fail me. I was like WITH the girls from the day i started kindergarden till Primary 4. Have no idea what changed that. I could do a thesis on that. First-hand account. Let's see...I didn't play Barbie with them though. Played hopscotch, zero-point, catching, badminton....All girls plus me....and probably another guy...Took things for granted then. Retribution.

Remembered that when i was in Primary 1, this small guy from class came up to me during recess and told me that Geraldine was HIS girlfriend. Well, Geraldine was one cute girl in class then. And i was like: HUH?!?...Apparently, this obsessed Geraldine fanatic didn't like her playing with ME all the time. Then that male-hussy started crying. My mum had to come in to console her. Him. Didn't think things would be soooo much different now.

Boys envied me. I could see those green-eyed menaces lurking all the time. I had thought then that they were just jealous because i had the most active life. Pure children activities. Not the adult thing. I didn't know what boobs were then. All i knew then was that girls didn't have dicks. Naive, gullible and innocent me. Stupid me.

But somehow, everything changed when i was promoted to Primary 4. I hung out more with boys. Not that i was gay or anything. Just that girls matured faster i think. Probably they didn't want to hang out with a freak with a dick. So, the bunch of us guys played our guy activities. No more envy. Young as i was, throwing and kicking balls were much more exciting than dating a girl. As i had said earlier, i'm not into the whole idea of romance and love at that time.

Well, i have to stop my life story here. Have to leave some for my biography later in my life in case i become famous or infamous one day. The whole idea about this shy thing is just to start off this entry. I'd just reached home an hour and a half ago. And an hour and fifteen minutes ago, an incident happened in the NEL MRT i was in.

A staring incident.

Not the type where ah bengs and ah sengs beat up ah kow because one of the ah bengs felt emotionally raped and violated when ah kow eyed him.

I was in the MRT heading home as usual (no more 105 for me) when this cute girl sat opposite me. While commuters lurvvv reading something or punching the keypads of their cellphones, i have to say i don't quite like doing those. Its okay if u read magazines or books. But it's utterly annoying when people around you start flipping through pages of newspapers. They spread their arms wide open; their papers blocking airflow around you; dust spew in all directions when they flip the pages. Well, so i just sit there and start observing everyone. Not in the sexual connotation.

This cute girl did not read anything. She did not fiddle with her cellphone. And i was attracted. Plus, she dresses just the way i luv girls to look like. Either baby tees or spaghetti tops with nice fitting jeans. Simple. Curious and attracted as i am, i threw a few glances to check her out. Good. A little like Lin XiLei. Then that shocker came.

Just as i lifted my head, my eyes met hers. And we just stared. For about 3-4 seconds. That electrifying gaze nearly sent my nose bleeding. I had to turn away first. I'm just too weak for a strong opponent. It's not those puppy look which she had given me. It's that cold stare. The utter coldness that brought about a tinge of bite. While most girls i've met filled me with warmth, hers was different. Hers was mystical.